Empty

Yes, like my brain, like my wide space inside. I have a new sl Master. He will fill it? I dont know.

My real Master is gone and I still love him. I am in love of his chains. Is time to move on, you see? But I am too smart to see it.

Showing off

We had a nice family dinner for xmas. Two new Pastors in the mission so they shared with us. My dad made me wear a nice white dress, and had to answer all kind of questions about me. I feel like a real doll, displayed in the window, everybody talks about me but I cant say a word.

They asked all about me, and my dad said almost the truth. He didnt shared details about my anxiety problems, but I guess is something to discuss to the one that will be really interesting in marry me.

I wonder what will be of my futur. I see that my daddy realised is time for me to start choosing a husband. I thaught he was going to wait 2 years but no. Is time. I wish i wont have to move far from my mom. Poor mom she will be so sad and alone. We are like sisters, both raised by daddy same way. we will see

My home

A wood house, anywhere is a mission, there we go. We pack the books, few clothes, the bear, the computer, the dog, the recipes book, the pots, and my father things.

My house is where my dad is because he rules in any way possible. My mom and me we whould be lost whithout him. But sometimes the family dream is a nightmare.

My dad is very strict, and we are both very dumb. The every day routine is mornings:chores and afternoon:home school. I teach my mom to read. And i teach myself all kind of cultural subjects, including history, literature, geography, anything but math. I cant count almost. Just small figures adding and substracting.

Evenings is second life time, when I am not too tired. Before it used to be chatting with my uncle, wich was my Master all my life (in secret). I feel empty now that he is gone. I was in love, and now he is gone and noone owns me, noone care. Like a cow whithout a bell.

who? me?

This is me. Always happy and obedient. I am the shadow of my father and soon will be the shadow of myself. I hope you dont mind if I share the story of my life with you. Is nice and catartic to have a place where unload all the heavy rocks in my back. My therapist said so, and so far he got right many many times.

Who knows whats gonna became. I gonna say I am 18 and half and I live in the country of a southamerican country, with my parents and my dog.

I am 1.50 m, I weight 40 kgs. My family belongs to a very religious community, and my father is a Pastor that goes around helping people in missions that require money and work. My mother barely reads and I barely can count.

what else? well we will see. I wont tell all the details about where i am for safetiness purposes. Many of you know me in Second Life as barbie winslet. Dont worry, if you dont know me you dont miss much eh?

see you when you read me

kiss

SG